Having to tell your bestfriend..and also boy who has been in love with you since ninth grade that you are having a child….worst feeliing ever…hating myself more and more every day.
I feel like a bad person..being stupid.enough to get knocked up so young..ruining everyone’s lives around me. It feels like my fault even though no one has said it out loud yet. I’m sad for my baby, I’m sad it won’t have everything it should and I coukd have everything but because I am so young it won’t…I’m also sad because it will have just me in the end.. everyone knows it even me, no matter how hard he tries he still will never be grown up enough for this. And that makes me sad.. not for me but for my baby.. for this beautiful life that is coming in to the world that has done nothing to deserve the life its going to have… And that makes me sad. But all I can do is love care and be there and watch my little life grow, hoping to god it never makes the chocies I did. Not that is was a mistake a new life is never a mistake, just that it is a harder life to have..